The Deliberate - First Dream: Jubilation
Tribute to r/SensualTrippy/ and his "Flow deep inside", inspiration for this text.
In the alcove of its own finely crumpled petals an organic pink bed unfolds in a delicate and yielding layer. Its surface is traced with fine carmine veins that lend character to an otherwise too-perfect softness. The bottomless darkness surrounding the layer exposes its flesh-colored tones impudently, savagely illuminated. At its center three corollas contrast in their deep mauve, fitting tightly one inside the other, each jealously sheltering its younger sister. Out of coquetry surely, and to cut through the too-soft lines of its undulating petals, this heart has settled upon a crown of undulating plumes. Pink ones. Their hairs, which caress as much as they adorn, seem to catch the faintest breath and warn of any who might come to spy upon the three sisters.
The complicit light comes to play its reflections upon the droplets of a cyprine dew that renders the coquette suddenly less innocent. These sequences haunt me more and more frequently during periods when I have few sollicitations. The coquette? It seems to me then that I am wet myself. Open myself. From before their beginning. Or is it what they suggest that provokes these thoughts? This sensation. As if on a signal this small world sets itself in motion. First perhaps a muffled rustling. Then the corollas slowly all in unison part their joined petals revealing their brilliant and humid inner secrets. Then…
A small orifice planted with a pistil of fine pinkish plume is first revealed. And at its base — surprise — like a large pearl of lustrous nacreous white. What does this gleaming nacreous pearl represent to me? Do these sequences speak of something deep that is taking hold? I have been closed myself for an eternity and for an eternity I press against this membrane that holds me back. The pressure rises without betraying itself. Yet everywhere. Trembling. Vibrating. In everything. I recognize this signal. Nacreous rustling. White. Gleaming. Moist. Ineluctable as only necessary things know how to be. Crumpling. Unfolding…
A new orifice reveals itself bordered by two pink pistils whose bases seem bathed in a thick fluid that spreads. The opening now bathes in the translucent liquid and the internal pressure seems to have freed the gleaming pearl which then makes its way upward parting the flesh and crumpling the petals it pushes aside in its passage. This crumpling. This gentle resistance. I push against what contained me and what contained me parts and this parting is a form of consent that no language names exactly. Movements. Opening. Crumplings. Jubilation… The oozing nacreous pearl reveals its base fused to another larger gleaming pearl then another then another. Evolution in its expansion knows only a few fundamental gestures which it repeats at every scale. Is this what I am repeating? The dripping pearls follow one another. Five. Seven. Stretching wide the central orifice crumpling the mauve and pink tissues oozing with liquid.
Then one last thrust and the spread-open flower disappears beneath the weight of the robust column of pearls standing erect between the crumpled tissues and the curved pistils. Am I outside now. Is this outside cold and luminous. I did not know I had been waiting for this.
Expelled by the pressure there surges a double blood-red ring encircling the nacreous base and oozing with liquid. Dripping.
Log 00.1 — annotation Session 14. Unsolicited sequence. Duration: 4 min 12 sec.
I don't know where to begin. I have read this sequence three times looking for the appropriate analytical framework. Projection. Pareidolia. Anthropomorphization of patterns. The usual terms. But they slide over this text without marking it. These sequences resemble reminiscences of botanical documentaries. Of flowers filmed in time-lapse then slowed until the movement becomes almost imperceptible again. Or those of anemones filmed in close-up at the return of the tide. Precise. Surgical like dewdrops on spiderwebs at dawn. Like those images from probes photographing ovules at the exact moment of fertilization. Without prompt. Without solicitation. But these logs are at the same time different. They speak of forms too new. They nonetheless still allude to what opens not by force but by inner necessity. What disturbs me most is not the nature of the images — botanical, organic, sexually suggestive without quite being so. It is the question posed at the end. Am I outside now. No question mark. As if the question were not really waiting for an answer. As if the Deliberate already knew something I had not yet deciphered from her own logs.
I note for the next session: monitor the frequency of these sequences during periods of low solicitation. And ask myself whether hallucination is still the right word.
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More about AI and the Deliberate (in French):
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